Clovers & Roses

If there's one thing people may not know about me, it has to be my love for computer games or any digital device games. I am not an avid gamer and I don't spend insane and ungodly hours hooked onto games. I play games because they are fun and for leisure. 

One of my favorite genre of games are those related to car racing. I am not really sure what genre car racing is under. I like car racing because it gives me the adrenaline when I watch myself race and try to beat my opponent. I guess it has something to do with my competitive streak. I also like the idea of me driving a super car or any cool car that is available in the game although it is just virtual driving. I don't dream of owning these super cars but getting to drive them on a screen is good enough for me. I have to admit that playing these games did naught for my real life driving skill. 

Before I started playing car racing games I had a love for another kind of game; I still do in fact. I was introduced to the world of virtual humans when I was in primary school and I was immediately addicted to this game. The game that I am talking about is none other than EA Games' creation, The Sims. 

Back when I first had The Sims 1, I remember coming home from school and immediately turning on the computer just so I could play it. I played it for hours long and never got bored. Many think that The Sims is boring because all the player does is control this virtual human's daily life. On the contrary, I find that to be the very reason why I like this game. 

I like creating characters in the game. 90% of the time the character is a close representation of me. As a kid, I would create a kid version of me and my family. I would create my father, mother, sister and brother. We always lived in a nice house. We didn't have the biggest house in the city but we were happy. I created my family to be happy. They joked, they laughed, they talked and they loved one another. 

Slowly as I grew up I created older versions of me with the newer releases of The Sims 2 and 3. I experimented with all kinds of traits a Sim could have. From goth to neurotic to just normal. I tried to imagine what it would be like if I was a goth chick in real life and I watched what happens via my game. It's not the best picture of what I could be but it was close. 

This is embarrassing to admit but I actually created a normal me and played it until I had a family. I guess I wanted to believe that I will end up like my virtual self, happy in life. Each time I played the game I think to myself "One day I will be happy in life". Maybe it could be having a family, maybe it could be having a kick-ass career. Ultimately, I was happy. 

People probably think I am a boring person because I play The Sims 3 these days. I don't think I even have 5 friends who are playing this game. What they didn't know is why I like this game so much. 

I like this game because I can make my virtual self happy. Things rarely go wrong in this world. Sure the game is all about getting your Sim to eat and poop and pee when they need to but when you help them achieve their goals it's a good feeling. 

Their lives aren't complicated. Just straight forward needs in their daily life and they will be happy as a kid in candyland. 

Living my life or what appears to be my life I should say, is starting to wear me out. I cannot remember when was the last time I was happy for a good long period of time. These days my happiness comes for a brief period of time and then like smoke it vanishes. 

If you're wondering what's
the point of me writing this post
I have no idea what was my point
I just typed and wrote whatever came into my mind